"I will never have this procedure again without anaesthetic"

Worst experience ever. I will say I have developed panic disorder recently but I am on medication for it. I had been previously waiting a year for this procedure which the NHS then transferred me to a private hospital because I had been waiting so long.  The surgeon I am under could not look at other surgery due without this procedure done. So I was determined to get it done to push my surgery along. I have had every other type of procedures with cameras and never had any issues.

The nurses I first dealt with were thorough, informative for every stage of the procedure and nice. They knew what medication I was taking and why and knew I was very nervous. I opted for sedation and was told I could have that and the throat spray. 

Firstly it took 2 staff to put a cannula in my hands. Both are bruised. I was given the throat spray two pumps which tasted disgusting but I was warned by staff before.

A lovely staff member instructed me to lay down on my left side and breath calmly. I closed my eyes from this point and tried to stay calm. The female nurse put the mouth guard in. All I know next was grappling and retching and the alarms going off on the machine. The nurse was telling me to be calm but I couldn't stop retching, gagging trying to pull it out my mouth but being held. I came round in a ward on my own. A nurse came and talked to me about who was picking me up and giving me my results. I walked to my husband with the nurse. I felt traumatised. When I got in the car my husband told me to look at my eyes. They were both filled with blood and I had broken capillaries around my eyes and face too. I will never have this procedure again unless I am out completely. They did find a sliding hiatal hernia in my oesophagus so that solved some symptoms. I have an umbilical hernia also.