"Waiting lists"

I have a prolapsed disc. My nerves are completely compressed on my left leg and partly on my right. It's been like this for well over a year. I've had an MRI which is now out of date, due to everything taking so long. I had a nerve root block injection in October. I had to chase the hospital about a follow-up due to the injection not working. I called again recently as I'd still heard nothing, to be informed that I was put on a waiting list to receive a telephone appointment. 

I can't cope with the pain! I called the Royal infirmary again to see when I should expect my letter for my telephone appointment since I was referred 6 weeks ago. I was informed the waiting list for this is up to a year! For a telephone appointment! Then god knows how long after before anything else is done. What good is a telephone appointment?! I believe it's just another delaying tactic. 

Today I broke down. I like to think of myself as a reasonably strong person with a good pain threshold. These past 2 days - I haven't been able to even stand and make dinner for my family. I then couldn't even sit on the sofa because I couldn't bend. Today, I was making my gran a cup of tea and I couldn't. I crumbled because the pain was so severe I couldn't stand for the 5 minutes it takes to make a cup of tea.

My mum asked to take me to A&E because of how bad it is but I declined. I declined because I've been sent before (by my GP) and the hospital don't do anything unless you are incontinent. I then started looking into seeing the same consultant privately - since there's no waiting lists for that. However, due to being off sick and on SSP I simply can not afford this. I just need help to live a normal life. I have a young child who needs me, but right now he's the one trying to look after me. He has to watch me cry due to the excruciating pain I'm in. 

I don't know what's happened to the NHS. Covid was horrendous and made such an impact on the  but that can't still be used as an excuse. 

I really need help. I simply cannot go on like this and other than reach out on here - I don't know what else to do. 

I need to stress how much this is impacting my life. It's effecting my time with my son. It's effecting my home life. It's effecting my work. It's effecting my income. It's effecting my sex life! It's effecting my mental health. It's effecting my weight. It's effecting everything!