"My life completely changing due to long covid. My hell."

Before covid I have martial arts schools all over and motorcycle riding schools. Biker cafe and a motorcycle garage. I wrote articles for motorcycle magazines and was as sharp and fit as could be. Then covid came and my partner and I got it. Both hospitalised but not really bad. I have diabetes but it was very controlled. 

After we were distracted I just got worse and worse with long covid. Lost everything. All my businesses and spent almost all my time in bed. Brain fog, memory, mouth sores, smell hasn’t completely come back, can’t swallow, my voice is different, my voice disappears but when I shout the noise comes out. Lungs are not good, can’t get up the stairs now and was a Grand Master! Heart races. Joints, balance, dizzy, sweating all the time. Shaking, Sick, so so tired, can’t move most of the time, my body feels Traumatised. Like I was taken apart and put back together wrongly,  feeling of dread and confusion, Thrush that just won’t go away. It’s been almost 3 years of constant thrush.  Pain in head, puzzled feeling. My Perception is sometimes all over the place. I can’t sleep then I go into a coma. Muscle spasms, twitches. You can only imagine how depressed I am and how useless and scared I feel sometimes. 

The doctors have been great. I also put on about 5 stone almost overnight. My diabetes went crazy out of control and no matter how much insulin I took my blood sugar was still sky high. I now take over 40 tablets a day, 3 to 4 injections a day and 3 inhalers a day. My diabetes it now under control after about 2 years, they found the insulin wasn’t working so I now take a hormone jag to make it work. 

My life has been totally ruined. Going from being so active to being stuck in bed has been so hard not just on me but on my family. The Covid Team psychologist was great. And the physio tried their best. I struggle to look to the future, but I do try. I still have very dark places but I need to believe that things will get better. If I didn’t have all my dogs to stay in bed with me all day I would have ended it or gone completely mad.