"Being discharged after 6 years of asking for help"

I’ve been asking for help for my mental health for 6 years , I have been diagnosed with the crisis team with BPD and by CHAMS when I was younger with chronic depression and anxiety . Growing up I’ve always really struggled with my mental health I started to go down the wrong paths with drug abuse, and alcohol/overdosing and self harm. Until I fell pregnant and that kind of helped me pick myself back up.

However, I was still struggling, I still am, but I try everyday for my little one. I no longer do drugs or alcohol but I still have thoughts of hurting myself and not being enough or wanting to die. I’ve been asking the GP for help and they give me antidepressants which don't help to the point, it’s made me ill and sent me to hospital. It's causing chronic headaches and now I have to take regular medication for it.

They referred me to Marlow house for an evaluation as I demanded to be seen as I was having what I call episodes all my life, I loose track of time and can’t remember what happened or what I did, only if someone tells me. I was assessed and told I was going to get helped and then when I received a letter, nothing was written how I said and they just discharged me after giving me a letter and a phone call saying they were going to help me and give me medication .

It took me every week to call up and get a call from the duty team to even know I was discharged or I wouldn’t of even known. I was absolutely distraught and in absolute tears on the phone . I still am.