"Absolutely appawlling disgusting behaviour"

I have been diagnosed with BPD, EUPD, EIPD, PTSD, Anxiety, depression and complex trauma. I was recommended by my GP 4 years ago to positive steps and have been trying for 4 years to get enrolled into this clinic. I have received letters upon letters telling me I have had missed appointments and telephone assessments which I didn't even have a clue I had I received no letters or text messages and as a result keep getting discharged. A part of BPD is fear of abandonment and nobody understanding and listening to you. There is no worst trigger for emotional instability than to be told your going to be helped then being left in the dark and being dragged through the mud and being asked to ride a carousel which never stops. Please listen to me do not reccomend anybody friends or family to this service and please if you suffer from any type of negative emotional do not sign up to this as they will let you down and make you more worst of than when you started. I feel more suicidal, abandoned, isolated and self destructive than what I did before my GP referred me to positive steps. This is just a warning please heed it.