"Being messed around about feet operations about 9 yrs now"

I have been having pains in my feet for about 15 yrs, attended loads of different clinics, one says ive got one leg longer than other, , that was only the start, , I sometimes mised the kerbs, as my left foot had no Judgement,

started seeing my Dr about nine yrs ago and was glad that I eventually had a diagnosis, as I stay myself they says they would do one foot which was okay with me, , then next visit changed their mind and say they will do both together, and it would be Day Surgery, I explained that I didnt have anyone for care, as I would be walking on the balls of my soles, so they cancelled, waited nearly a year back to see them,

by this time my big toes where over my other toe, 9 years my big toe has never touched the ground, , same as usual cancelled as no carer I was 43years old, next week I will be 55years my mum who sadly passed away says she could see how much pain l was in, ,

today June 2019  ive now been Diagnosed Rheumatoid athritis in my hands, , got steriod injection, , lastly back seeing, l couldnt walk I had summer sandals as I cant get shoescto fit, in february 2019 as l had my pre op week before and had MRSA screen heart monitored for surgery I walked in and they says they cant do them as they have got worse, couldnt believe it did say I wouldnt put someone through this pain walked out, then got a letter to go to my GP to get put back on the waiting list, it feels to me like this Surgeon has put my life on hold for over 9 years, , so angry