I don’t believe or feel these guys can support and offer what’s needed. Mental health is a complex, misunderstood mess.
My Dr has saved my life. No doubt. I don’t criticise one iota.
I had a CPN who I felt avoided my calls, made excuses, and manipulated m. With a mental health condition, who’s going to believe me ?
Crisis team is if you're suicidal? GP if you are struggling a touch? But in between psychiatric appointments, what about us who have no clue what’s going on ?
Months of impulsive, destructive behaviour and choices? Hate, suicidal thoughts? Regrets, guilt, fatigue, anxiety, every day a turmoil.
I have two choices. Deal with it ? Or Die?
I’m hurting these I love with aggression, hurtful statements, and inconsistencies. Surely they would better without me?
I’m not Bi Polar? And as far as I am concerned it’s proven than medication does not treat BPD? So why do I take medication for this?
Life’s difficult on these meds everyday ? And constant jags and blood tests.
But even after all that my life feels like an uncontrolled mess anyway. So is medication really necessary in treating BPD.
I hate who I am. So I turn up to psychiatrist meetings ? And I want to please. I don’t give 6 months trauma in 10 minutes .
I give what I feel at that moment .
I am not criticising the NHS or my Dr.
Even being polite and in a desperate situation? Dealing with the secretary is a nightmare .
I am left feeling worse than I did when I first called .
"Feeling lost"
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