"I cannot go on living like this"

I was discharged extremely suicidal from the Avon and Wiltshire Mental Health trust in Bristol 6 months ago. this was against the advice of several of my GPs at the time, my former therapist, and a mental health advocate. I have been left with severe mental health issues, alone, with no help. In the last 6 months, 2 suicidal referrals have been rejected. it is clear that AWPs intention is to reject each and every referral made about the severity of my situation. 

In the last 6 months my mental health has severely deteriorated. I have become far more suicidal, having to be pulled from bridges repeatedly by strangers. I have about half an hour's sleep. I am experiencing severe paranoia and am unable to sleep because of a real fear of negative spirit attachments. I have developed severe eating problems. I survive on 3 eggs a day. 

after removing my only source of help 6 months ago, AWP recommended repeatedly that I re visit a charity therapy centre who completely emotionally traumatised me. clearly this is not appropriate. 

I was seeing a therapist once weekly, which was helpful - this was 6 months ago when I was under the AWP community team- but that was all removed when I was discharged. even my former therapist agreed that the short term and behavioural therapy options in the free charities community are not and would not be of benefit- based on past experiences. (I was doing relational therapy with my former therapist 6 months ago).

I cannot go on living like this. I have been utterly left to rot, I am marked on my risk assessment as high suicide risk. and have been left in a severe position with no support. I need help from the NHS.

Please pass my statement directly on to the staff in the Bristol Petherton team.

I have made many complaints to PALS and will no longer accept any communication from them and have long since given up making any complaints to them, since I have discovered it is pointless. all they ever do is make you wait months for a letter which basically says 'sorry you feel that way' or 'that never happened' or 'we did everything perfectly'. so I do not seek to make a complaint.