"Consultants and Doctors don't Listen"

I have been under the care of your Neuropsychology Department now for the past 2 year after suffering a number of strokes at the age of 30’s since then I have seen a large number of different Consultant from yours and other departments within your Hospital. I feel every time that I attend this department to see a Consultant that I have become a burden to them because they don’t listen to what I am saying to them at all. They sit there behind their desks and asked the same question and they don’t listen to what I have to say or what my mother has to say about me to them. It’s saddens me that your professional doesn’t take the time to listen to what I have to say or my mother, but are only willing to make assumptions of me. I suffer from (PTSD) Depression, Back, Leg and Hand problems. When I fall into a deep, dark depression I withdrawal from socializing, I feel constant irritability and irritate others and feel great sadness. My feelings are of inadequacy, self-loathing and at times I want to self-harm and wonder why I even wake up. I feel worthless I have no control over my life, I feel a burden to others, useless and a burden to society, I hate my appearance, I feel worthless I have no control over my life I have little enjoyment in my life now. I get fed up having to explain my and condition over and over again to different Consultant and Doctors my mood is low I’m Angry, restless I’m self destructive. I feel like I should have just died I'm a strain on my rock my supporter my mother I hate what I have become.