"The birth of my baby"

Last year When my delivery started I came to hospital. My midwife wanted back me to home with paracetamol. After examination she were suprised that Im really in labour. I stayed with my partner in private room. She gave me gas and went out. She came to my room every 40mins. When I asked about epidural she said not to worry I dont need it, I am well and my baby is coming quick.

I trusted her (my fault). I stopped with gas (it didn't work for me)... my baby were really big and I had very big pain.

Usually Im strong women and never scare of pain but that was to extremally and I fainted twice. She always repeated you are well, good job... nothing else. She didn’t help me when I said that my baby is too big and cut me down please... I lost about 1l of blood and had 3c dagree tear. I had two hours operation and my husband had skin to skin with our baby.

Next day I didn’t sleep. I felt terrible there and just wanted back to home to my family. I felt alone and disability... a few weeks ago I saw my midwife report from my delivery and I was completly shocked... she writed that Im happy from gas and don’t wanna epidural... I feel that she lied... I have booked c section and I scare to meet that kind of people...