"eating disorder"

I struggle with food for many years and have been very happy to find someone who is going to help me.Unfortunately I found that my therapy is going in strange direction.I got the book and had to do the plan from it.What really surprised me,we are all different with different types of problems.Some of them are short some long term.I think we should be treated as individual no all stuck with the same program from one book.Doing food diary for every day when you work full time made me really tired and upset.On my therapy I haven't heard anything new apart eat regularly and do your food diary.With all respect to my therapist at almost the same age as me,I prefer someone older with bigger experience.I can say I'm in this subject for more than 19 year I wonder how long is my therapist.When I sad about my low,depressed days during my holidays,I have been adviced that I should back to my medication which made me exhausted for 24h. This is not what you want to hear from your therapist.I haven't been listened at all.I told I'm addicted from food like alcoholic from alcohol so I can't eat more meals because this way I will spend all day in the kitchen but the gold rule is eating regularly.With someone who is addicted I'm not sure about it.The only one person who knows what I'm talking about and always listens is my work mate .Very often we talk like two alcoholics because this is how everything looks like.From my therapy I expected someone who will listen,understand and teach me how to fight with my food anxiety,show me any methods,what to do to stop thinking about food.Shops,bars and all this food inside make me really anxious and for next few hours I can't stop thinking about food.Food calms my emotions and killing me mentally.Our body needs food but too much food everyday in your stomach is killing you mentally.I have so many things going in my head but when I go on therapy I get the book to read and food diary to do.I wish to be treated as an individual because I read many many books about eating disorder,I do something like food diary to keep me on track for many years and what,,,,,,I'm still sick,this all things haven't improved my life at all.