"Had a interview to see if they could help me"

I was arranged an interview to meet with some people to see if I was eligible for treatment. I was happy about hopefully receiving the treatment I need. However I had an interview with a nice doctor but she had a student with her who was gaining work experience by being with the doctor. The student being my age put me off and made me talk less open about certain aspects of my life. I was asked if this would be okay but I'm too shy to say anything and felt bad for the student who would be missing out on the experience. During the interview I was asked whether I would take medication as well as the counseling they would offer but at that time I didn't want to take medication due to being unsure about it and the numerous common side effects that come with it. I am now on medication due to having no support or help from anyone and began thinking that suicide was the only realistic way out. I'm now on medication but  the side effects of them have made my anxiety and life worse. I now over sweat too much all the time, trouble sleeping due to sweating and the current heat.

I didn't have a great experience and I think that to only offer support if you take medication isn't great support. I can't now re book an appointment through them as I have to go through another service (DAS) and receive a referral from them. Due to me feeling that when I was speaking openly to DAS, they didn't really care for my problems and spent most of the time going through risk assessments and him talking. This is no longer an option and I have no means of support. Feel a little betrayed because of all the adverts  and social media campaigns  offering mental health support but in reality they have very limited resources to provide good, helpful and accessible options. I've found these options not very understanding of my problems and in the end of no help to me.