"Disgusted"

So I've been trying my hardest to show people I am sick with mental illness which I suffer most of my life. I felt like being shut away again by these people like if you have mental health god forbid it as give you medication and pack you off when I have been crying for help just because I said my work saw improvement which I lied to them because I hate talking I need help but they don't seem to see it. Now I'm more than likely to harm myself because I feel let down and pissed off that they can do this to people. I do have talents i just didn't understand in a way they were saying it as I find stuff hard to comprehend sometimes but it seems I'm not ill as I think I am when nobody understands what's just going through my head.