"Failed by the NHS."

When I was 18 I attended my gp practice every other week with pain and gynae symptoms. I was ignored. My gp was off, so I was seen by a another gp who referred me straight to gynae.

I underwent my first laparoscopy which showed endometriosis, ovarian torsion and blocked fallopian tubes. I was told I was sub fertile or infertile and that I should try for a baby if thats what I wanted, so I did.

Three years of. No success I underwent another laparoscopy and hormone therapy that put me in a menopause for four months. I fell pregnant.

 I asked for a c section and at that tine was told no unless there was a medical reason so I had to try give birth naturally against my will. Towards my due date in June 2010 my gran whom I was very close with was coming to the end of her 7 year battle with cancer.

I had a huge baby in a tiny body, my gran was dying and I asked a few days before my due date to be induced. I was told no by my midwife. One day before my due date my gran died and never got the chance to meet my baby.

I went back and begged to be induced a few time but it was a no.  I went into labour naturally. I had asked for an epidural as soon as I walked into the building. At 8cm and almost 12 hours later I received my epidural. My baby was far too big for my 5 foot 5, 8 stone frame and while pushing my stomach muscles burst apart with a loud popping noise which made me feel sick.

She got stuck while pushing. I was shoved a consent form to sign under my nose with no idea what I was going for. No discussion or explanation and I was on gas and air as the epidural was one sided so unable to really sign a consent form.

I got taken to theatre were I had a keelans rotation and mid cavity forceps with apeciotomy. I had a 9 pound 6 ounce girl who was 57 cms long. FAR too big for my body. After repair I was put back to the ward. At home my episiotomy button holed at the back and I had some issues.

Since this birth I have had a multitude of problems, chronic constipation which has caused mega colon, an anal sphincter defect from episiotomy, a massive diastasis recti that has not resolved after years of physio, a para umbilical hernia from the abdominal split and now I have a curved spine because I have zero core and cannot use my back muscles in the correct way.

I still have my endometriosis and from pushing out such a big baby I now have urinary and faecal incontinence with an anterior and posterior prolapse. I am in chronic pain with my stomach and back and have limited pain relief due to my constipation. My life has been ruined by not sectioning me when these days I would have been. I have spoken to a medical lawyer as this is a very shortened version and they think I have a case. I want to have my self fixed. Fix what you broke.