"An experience of mixed emotions"

I was bleeding all the time on and off and rushed to Barnet hospital every other day. And once had go by ambulance 🚑 from my parental home.

I had my daughter at 34 weeks plus four days she was born prematurely and need to be resuscitated and had be on a respirator as she was struggling to breath after she was born. And she had a tongue tied which was not noticed only I did as a mother and had have it done privately.

My experience in the neonatal unit was good all Dr and nurses was helpful. When I was on the victoria ward I had bad experience and  I was having contractions I was left crying alone and nobody came to see me. And when ever I buzzed nobody came.

And in the labour ward was left alone with my husband and that was when I had the epidural and I was left alone mean while I was having strong contractions and my baby girl was in distress which lead me to have forceps delivery which was not my choice.