"Denied my surgery just moment before it was due"

I have perforated eardrum and after got check up from the two GPs I got surgery appointment on 4th July, at 9:20 AM in this Royal National Throat, Nose and Ear Hospital at Kings Cross. Just before going into the surgery I was seen by the consultant and they made me scared that after surgery there is a high risk of my facial nerve problem, food taste change, and continuous noise in my ear. I asked the consultant what is the risk having the surgery and not having the surgery for my perforated eardrum? Their answer: I would be better off not having the surgery. There is a higher risk of having the surgery. Having the surgery out weight not having the surgery. I was sitting there for more about 15 minutes and asking the consultant I want the surgery because I feel pain in my ear all time. It gets worse in the cold weather. I cannot take the bath. I cannot swim. The consultant's answer was: This is not a reason for having the surgery. After that, they moved onto another reasoning that NHS won't fund my surgery for the perforated eardrum. This point I have felt really disappointed and dishearted because I am paying my NI and paying my TAX and never asked for the benefit and neither desire to ask for the benefit and I could not have my surgery which was already due. The consultant has made feel really sad. I went to my home and straight went to bed because I could not feel even talking to anyone about it. This behaviour is unacceptable and deceiving. This doctor has deprived me of having my surgery at the last moment.