"Received unhelpful leaflets"

I have suffered depression and anxiety all of my life. I DONT ask for help. But this time I did. I actually felt good about having the courage to say I needed help rather than simply ''opting out. ' Even though the lady was lovely I left Wakefield house feeling deflated and pointless. I got leaflets to read which I could have got off the internet. I know my challenges. I know my limits. I knew what the leaflets would say. Did they help me? No. My mind doesn't focus for long enough to absorb and read leaflets. And even if it did I've read that same information for years in books, on the internet, libraries etc. I'm not stupid enough to admit to wanting to end my life as that may justify locking me in somewhere and I would freak out being locked in as I am claustrophobic. However, that is exactly how I feel, a dam pointless burden. In fact I feel worse having been than before I went.