"begging for help"
About: Ailsa Hospital / General Psychiatry Ailsa Hospital General Psychiatry KA6 6AB
Posted by tubs1980 (as ),
get the feeling that doctors all want patients of methadone now. so I take diazepam to calm me down and get a sleep as I can't even go in shower without it. all I want is my life back to normal and I hate taking diazepam and I don't wish to end up depending on diazepam.
I got raped by another man in prison. This doctor has saw me once and said I don't need any antidepressants. The rapist got freed the way I feel is all I want to do is kill him or myself. if this doctor insists on treating me this way as he has told me stop the benzodiazepines or they will stop my methadone prescription. its not fair if the doctor puts me back on what I was on I would never take benzodiazepines again please.
I am just so ashamed at being raped in prison a feel so low at times I could jump of a bridge. now I have this doctor again soon and I am terrified that I will be bullied off my methadone as without that I would be better dead or in prison especially now this rapist is walking the street. all I want is to go back on medication that worked for a good few years.
I don't sleep and if I do I have constant nightmares and am prone to sleep walk. I have told this doctor all of this but feel as if I just get threatened that I will be taken off my methadone. thank you I only hope you can help please I am begging your help