"I needed faster interventions"

I've had severe mental health issues for the last two years, resulting in two hospitalisations. It started January 2017, I saw my GP and told them I had depression and was struggling to leave the house because of anxiety. I was prescribed an antidepressant. Two months later I went back reporting that it wasn't effective and that I was no longer sleeping because of the side effects. The dosage was increased and I began to experience chronic depression and weeks of really high mood, this caused me to lose periods of time and behave erratically. I went back to my GP and asked if I could come if the drug, but he increased it instead. Come March 2018 I wasn't sleeping for days at a time and had become almost completely silent and withdrawn, I started self harming without really knowing why and just felt utter dispair. My GP told me to self refer to Steps4Change but there was a six month waiting list. By June 2018 I had a complete meltdown, left work and disappeared for three hours. My step count was 26, 000 steps but I don't know where I went or how I got home. Two weeks later after entering the crisis house I was admitted to a mental health ward. I was there for 5 weeks and released with new medication. For the next year I felt really let down because I had a 6 month gap between leaving hospital and receiving follow up care. I was told I'd be released with a CPN but this didn't happen. When I was finally given the follow up care it was not a stable support system, I had 2 CPN's and another wait list in short succession. I was hospitalised again in August 2019 after a third overdose and discharged myself after 2 days because I was sent three hours away from home. There were no beds in county. I was given a 3rd CPN because the other two left and was started on yet another medication. This one has really helped and I have found more stability in the care I receive now. My CPN is really supportive and I'm greatful for the input she's given, as well as my previous CPNs and psychiatrist. I do believe that I would have recovered a lot faster with quicker interventions and more intensive support, but appreciate just how stretched these resources are and how easy it is for people to fall through the net.