"Traumatic experience at the service"

I was treated intensively at the service for the best part of 3 years altogether (2015-2018) which resulted in a mental breakdown and subsequently a severe PTSD. During all that time, the two therapists I saw did not notice my then undiagnosed autism. Three months ago in May 2019, I was diagnosed with autism by a specialist multidisciplinary team externally as the trust does not diagnose autism. I feel deeply scarred by the service and live in constant panic attacks associated with random memories from my treatment. During my breakdown in 2016 I became almost nonverbal as my autism about which I didn't know at the time has worsened because of my clinical experience. I could also hardly walk and kept experiencing physical injuries as a result of my worsened coordination skills. No clinician at the service suspected my autism and I returned for more treatment by a second therapist there. I feel even more subsequent treatmen by the complete breakdown in communication with the therapist whoyet again did not realise that I am autistic and communication has a different meaning to me. It is essential to incorporate this element in an intensive transformative psychotherapy to not lead to a severe trauma and worsen their condition. My intensive psychological treatment ended unsuccessfully and left me feeling deeply scarred and traumatised. I do not recommend this service to any autistic people and advise caution when proceeding to any other patients.