"I am fighting to turn my life back"

I finally confessed to the doctor that I was struggling with a heroin addiction. I felt sick and as though I was exposing myself to the world about something I had felt so ashamed of. I tried to say as little as possible about it. It was a huge dark secret that was causing havoc in my life. The appointment had lasted the full allotted 10 minuets as I had discussed with her about several other issues I was dealing with at that time. She had written up three or four tests that I needed to undertake like blood tests and and ecg and other appointments at other departments. So she said, 'cancel all of those things dont worry about doing any of that, I want you to call this place CGL and get yourself an appointment immediately. That is your first priority and I want you to do that today.'.

I left the doctors and called them as I walked towards home. Imran answered the phone and invited me in straight away that afternoon. I am so fortunate that this happened because if I had been given an appointment for a another day that week, I'm not sure I would have kept to it. 

I arrived and Imran opened the door and walked me around to show me the building. It felt like a place of sanctuary. I was given an appointment and explained what the service can do for me and I knew that I was meant to be there. This was where I could find the help I couldnt accept I needed, until then.

I live near to CGL and I know how lucky I am to have this service available to me as I know that there are other boroughs and counties that don't provide five day a week support with so much support, social groups, activities and health care. My intention at this moment is to ensure that I attend the service as a number one priority. I have ruined seven years of my life with the abuse of heroin. Since January of 2019 I am fighting to turn my life back around and create a new positive life for myself. Change Grow Live is exactly what I need and Im focusing now on doing just that. And i'd like to thank everyone at the service for everything so far. Ive got a journey to go through still but i'm very positive about the future.